I am still sick. Worse today. I have decided that I do not like being sick as much as I thought I did. Tonight is the Grammy party here in New York but I am so sick that I am not even looking forward to attending. I can’t even move.
Last screening: And now a movie called Kandahar about Afghanistan women and how they are treated. They have to wear these hooded tents over their whole bodies all the time. they have no identities as people. they are treated as non-people. they are called black heads since they completely covered up. it is horribly sad and confusing from a western perspective.
This is the most disturbing and upsetting movie I have ever seen. but one of the best. it is a true story. I find myself sad and horrified and frightened that this is real…. I didn’t realize it was so fucked up over there. I am becoming obsessed with the Middle East… I do not understand the world we live in. how we can have it so good over here and there can be other parts of the world that are so behind and so filled with pain and sorrow. I do not understand how corporate America and other euopean countries can have so much money and spend so much money on so many frivolous things and there are millions of people who do not have enough clean water to drink or food to eat or the red cross doesn’t even have enough money to give everyone replacement arms and legs for people who got them blown off by land mines. Can you even imagine this shit exists? no. not here in the United States you can’t… we are just far removed from what’s happening in other parts of the world…
