Busy day. then a wine tasting with polar bear and Sdawg in the evening. And then a few songs into a concert of the band Blow up Hollywood, whom I really like. Then off to a karaoke bar with Sdawg who is all of 23 years old but I totally love her. I love our connection. She has a totally easy vibe about her. very real. And sweet. and down to earth. And no bullshit. someone came up to her tonight and asked her in a very typical New York way, ‘is that Marc Jacobs you’re wearing?” and she’s like, “no, its salvation army. Three bucks!” and that’s her in a nutshell. this you have to love. Part of her charm is that she’s this total space cadet hipster chick who walks around in a nun outfit when she feels like it, but she has this other side too, this darker depressive side that is entirely expected for that age and for someone who hasn’t discovered the niche they’re heading into yet. she’s just living the life right now. we sang a duet of don’t let me down by the Beatles which was awesome. I am totally hooked on karaoke right now since our band hasn’t played a show in about a fucking year! As soon as I get back from the weekend we are going to go full on karaoking for days at a time till she leaves for India. I hate that she is leaving for India for a year. but all seasons have their reason. Unless you live in Florida of course and there are no seasons. Then what is the reason for that?
I will certainly miss her though. I love all the girls I hang out with. But my connection with her is the easiest. Right now I’m seeing girls from age 23 to 46 and that’s an amazing thing. that’s something that you dream of in high school and college. no way you could experience that if you were married. So that’s a great thing. part of the real benefit of holding out on the old marriage thing. living the life. like I always say, the only drag about getting married is that its forever. at least in its present incarnation. So that’s something you really have to always try to remember. Hold off for as long as you can till you get it all out of your system. or until something comes along that just knocks you to the ground. Fucking a. what a strange night though. To go from this yuppie wine tasting into a rock concert into a total dive bar singing karaoke with all these crazy drunk Latino locals…
REMEMBER. A WIZARD STAYS WIDENED BACK. BREATHES. SMILES. OBSERVES. FEELS.
‘HHHHMMM, ISN’T THIS INTERESTING?’ UNCONDITTIONAL. WITHOUT EXPECTATION.
MAKES DECISIONS YES. DECISEIVLY.
BUT NOT HASTILY.
ONLY ACTS FROM LOVE.
NEVER FROM FEAR OR ANGER.
SOMETIMES A WIZARD MAY ASK, ‘HHHMMMM, NOW WHAT DO I WANT TO CREATE?’