I’ve written of this experience before, the very first Avatar Course…. On occasions when I’m asked about it. Or when someone is generally at that point where they feel as though they’re at that breakthrough moment and just dying for that something that will give them the tools to really do it.
On New Years Eve of 1994 I started day one of the 9 day Avatar Course. It had been a long time coming. I had already spent years deep diving into everything else throughout human history that claimed to be truly effective at managing consciousness, i.e. to deliberately affect our feelings thoughts ideas beliefs and the events and experiences of our lives, and not found anything that truly delivered on the promise. If anyone in 10,000 years of human history had claimed to discover something that worked and wrote about it, I dove in, jumped in, joined up and explored and tested it to its absolute outermost limits; and looking back now, did so in a pretty logical, predictable order. Religions of all ilks, became born again, which inevitably lead to converting to Judaism (if you go deep enough), fell in love with Lord Krishna and became a devotee, studied and practiced Buddhism, A Course in Miracles, The Vedas, self help books and courses aplenty, Yogananda, Chopra, Ram Dass, Wayne Dyer all became favorites if not radically transformative, hallucinogens, Tony Robbins is still a mentor and favorite, NLP, the secret teachings of the Rosicrucians, the Knights Templar, EST and Landmark Forum, philosophy, Anthroposophy and Theosophy, went deeper still…. fasting, prayer, chanting, meditation, rebirthing, psychics, body scanners, reiki, past life regression, astrology and Akashic Records readings, discovered the beauty of the Goddess through practicing witchcraft Wicca and Magic, psychiatrists and meds, psychotropics, psychoanalysis and therapy…. the list is endless. As are the promises.
Eventually a series of what could only be called a series of serendipitous, near supernatural, events led me to the Avatar Course. It was expensive, IMO, because I was young and without wealth as of yet. But coming up with the money needed came miraculously out of nowhere. And it was then that I took the intuitive knowing that it was meant to be seriously.
The Avatar Course was the most challenging thing I had ever done up until that point in my young life. There’s no win or lose. No participation certificate. You either get it and experience enlightenment or you don’t. You’re free to come back for free as many times as you need to. Or even ask for a refund.
For me it took 4 long arduous 12 hour days and a lot of struggling and resisting to get it. My Master remained relaxed, confident and firm. She just kept lovingly reminding me to let go and feel everything and stop trying so hard. And then in one soft quiet moment towards the end of the day, i got it. I BECAME the TREE. I WAS THE TREE. Wow! It’s real! Everything I had read about it in the Vedas and Buddhism was true. Enlightenment was real.
I don’t mind sheepishly admitting that I ran as fast as I could all the way back to the house and flung the front door open to find my Master to tell her of my win. There she sat at her kitchen table, just quietly, softly grinning. In reality I didn’t need to tell her anything. She had already felt it the moment the breakthrough took place. I looked at her, my eyes beaming. She smiled back at me and we became ONE, solidly in a moment of infinity, and she just let out a soft gentle “hhhhmmm…. YOU feel good!”
It was true. I did. I couldn’t believe it. I scanned my entire mind and body and truly “felt better than I’ve ever felt before”. And then I burst into huge fits of laughter. And then tears. “My God it’s real… I wasn’t really sure it was really real! I was losing hope…. But it’s actually real!” I looked up and stuttered to my Master in between laughs and tears. Tears of joy streamed down my face, and then more laughter, back and forth.
No matter what I put my attention on, I BECAME it. Became one with it. It was magic. But REAL magic. It was Siddhartha under the Bodhi tree.
It’s such a common turn of phrase and thus so easy to say I thanked God. But in reality it was more like I just closed my eyes and FELT God, became one with Godness and vibrated thankfulness and appreciation to and with this divine force that was emanating through me.
I wanted more. Wanted to go deeper. And three months later, in March, I took the Master’s Course. I couldn’t believe what I saw on the first day. A little less than a hundred people of all ages and ethnicities from every country in the world were there to do the same thing. Go deeper.
Which is where this photograph above comes from. Little me and a brand new group of friends who more than anything else in life were interested in consciousness and enlightenment —mind blown — the photo taken exactly 23 years ago from today. From what I remember we were about 4 or 5 days in and thus feeling really high and soft and puddled from what we were learning. Pure love, pure oneness. It is one of my dearest fondest memories. And always worth a Share.
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