I did not return to my grandparents’ house for many years. it is true. I boycotted all family affairs. And because secretly and sadly I told myself that I was too well-bred, well spoken, and snobbish to fit in with my father’s side of the family I avoided them entirely. they always made fun of…
Month: January 2004
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I still feel like I am in this time warp. Strange feeling. Sometimes it is day. Sometimes it is night. I am going to Orlando to hang out with a bunch of friends. And then to see Maddie and Mohdie and their new baby. I don’t feel that I am sleeping well at all. I…
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I was parked on the side of the road downtown with the top down. Smoking a cigar and typing. I want to do a series of interviews with priests and nuns and other religious leaders I have met over the years. Been collecting these various people for a long time. I was creating a list…
Who Am I?
I understand the Blue Mask now… I thought I was Tobias Guess. I Thought that one day I would be. I just always assumed it. Didn’t know for sure. I thought the Blue Mask was a character I was working on. I had no idea… I had no idea this would happen… What happened? How…
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I do not know who I am. Or where I am. I was in the car…. I was at the office? and then in the car? But now… where is this? where am I now? who am I now?
Picking Up Hitch Hikers
Picked up this old black guy today who was hitchhiking on south beach. It was about 10 or 11 at night. I pull over. Roll down the window; “where you headed old man?” “Where you going?” he asks me. “downtown.” “then downtown it is.” he hops in the passengers side. We’re off. I get on…
Studying – Is It Worth It?
Where does all the information we read about go in our minds? It seems as though we are only able to gather a certain amount and then previous information disappears… can we get that previous information back again? we study study study. Always learning new things. taking new materials in… But is it worth it…
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Beav’s birthday today. Glad he was born. Thank God for it. I would die without him in my life. he is the light to my darkness. Dreamed last night that somehow I ended up in studio/office/communal living space. just ended up there without knowing how or why I was there. I recognized everyone there. many…
Self Obsessed
“the role of the revolutionary artist is to make revolution irresistible” Vancouver goes entirely insane. Decides to tour with the Latin singer. we decide from now on he will be our Brian Wilson. Find someone else to tour with for now. Trying to study Einstein’s theory of Special relativity. Having to read the same paragraphs…
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Went to dinner with Ducky who is down to hang with her parents for a few days. Caught up. talked all about all of our old friends from high school and what everyone is doing now. everyone is married with children now. hearing about all these people that you went to high school with and…